I don’t know why, but I’m feeling awfully fancy today. What I mean by fancy is a mix of feeling good about my 一所懸命 attitude about life I’m actively cultivating. Well, I’m currently really trying to feel only good feels and accept that the only way to change things I’m not happy with, in my life, is to be the person who makes the change happen.
Oddly enough I feel a calmness that I don’t generally experience when faced with this sort of obstacles. You know, the big obstacles that make or break your life. Perhaps I overthink things. Okay, I deffo overthink everything ever. Which is something I am really working on fixing. No obsessing, just using my brand of crazy as a fuel of motivation to get what I want. I think that’s something that I’ve lost sight of, recently. I live by the mantra that I always get what I want because I make it happen. Writing it down makes it feel more real and tangible, or something.
This feeling of making it work and being in charge of my life again has me feeling way nostalgic. I watched a billion old videos on youtube, from when I first arrived in Japan. Music has really evolved since 2013, I’ll say that. However, I’m pleased that サカナクション has maintained their signature sound. 「アルケアラウンド」 was the first of their songs I heard and I was a man obsessed.